I haven't written in a while because I'm losing steam. I haven't even really got my feet under me with this project and already I'm failing. Challenging yourself and change is hard. I'ts not like I'm trying to change a lot. I'm just trying to exercise more, get my mind wrapped around positive things and get myself out there...doing things...things that I can look forward to. I've already fallen back into my old routines. Epic fail.
I was eating lunch at a coffee shop the other day and I noticed at the table beside me there was a woman and her two preschool-aged kids and another woman who was probably Grandma. The girl child (about 2-3 years old) was squirming in her chair, but nibbling on her peanut butter sandwich between distractions. Boy child (about 8-9 months) was in his high chair, banging on the table while mom was feeding boy child on her left, telling girl child on her right to sit still and eat and then barely getting in a bit of food from her own plate.
As I'm watching this mom-dance between stuffing food down the gullett of baby boy whenever his mouth would veer close to her hand on one side of the table, and moving the little girl's glass away from the edge of the other side of the table, telling her to sit up, eat more, etc., I notice that the little boy's body was turned completely toward Grandma, who was eating her meal smiling. laughing, nodding and playfully touching
